Britney Spears:
''Im still paying for breakdown'

19 Nov 2008 

BRITNEY SPEARS' comeback is bittersweet - because the star feels "no excitement, no passion" for singing after her infamous breakdown.
 
The star was hospitalised twice earlier this year (08) and lost custody of her sons Sean Preston, three, and two-year-old Jayden James after a series of public meltdowns, including a headline-grabbing incident when she shaved her head.
 
Speaking in new MTV documentary, Britney: For The Record, the singer says, "I have really good days, and then I have bad days. Even when you go to jail you know there's the time when you're gonna get out. But in this situation, it's never ending. It's just like Groundhog Day every
day."
 
The star's fortune is being kept under indefinite control by father Jamie as part of a co-conservatorship agreement with the courts - but Spears is wary that those closest to her are stifling her creativity.
 
She continues, "I think it's too in control. If I wasn't under the restraints I'm under, I'd feel so liberated. When I tell them the way I feel, it's like they hear but they're really not listening."
 
And Spears, who is enjoying success in the U.S. and U.K. with new single Womanizer, is convinced she is still paying for the breakdown she suffered in the public eye.
 
She adds, "If you do something wrong in your work, you can move on, but I'm having to pay for a long time. I never wanted to become one of those prisoner people. I always wanted to feel free."
 
And even though her "weird" life is all she's known, Spears didn't realise how famous she was until her breakdown. She adds: "I think I've learnt my lesson now and enough is enough."